depressed but not suicidal

okay dokey, i'm pretty much screwed up, from my defination of self, to my concept of life, my sense of belonging of both the supernatural and the natural.went to church today, in my desprate bid to find God, i think ki had a brief grasp of him, but its scary how i always seem to feel alone in my desperate want for him. jeez, all the beauty, all the money, all the clothes and shoes just feels like nothing right now. i'm depressed, i used to feel like i had it all, now i feel so empty like i've never even had half of it.scary huh, but i'm not near suicidal though.don't they say, there'll always be the sun after all the rain and storms? thats it for me, i just know somehow i'll get myself out of this place.